Your life is your message to the world. Make sure it's inspiring.
-Lorrin L. Lee
Wednesday, August 14, 2013
The only wish that I can't grant
These last few days have been tough on me. My son's ADHD and ODD conditions have been worse because I think he has anxiety from all the new beginning and stress. I have always said that I can give my son everything from the moon and back, but I've finally hit a bump in the road. I never thought there was something that I could not give my son, but it hurts me to finally find one. You see, my son has decided that he wants a little brother or sister. I'm not ready for another one just yet with my busy life with him and college, not to mention my boyfriend isn't ready either. I tell him my son "no" and he gets all sad. He tells me how badly he wants to have a little brother or sister and it kills me inside to tell him that I can't give him that. At least, not yet. I'm not ready. For once, my needs come before my son's needs. It hurts knowing that I can't grant this one wish. I feel like my son is punishing me for not being able to give him what he wants. Life isn't always fair. It hurts making my son realize at a young age that mommy can't always give him everything.